Today was a brutal day. I struggled with me just to run the smaller tasks. This story should be written this morning and is now 15, and I barely made a dent in my “to do list.” Days like this used to derail me completely and lead to more days that became weeks of slogging through my life.
The road to depression is paved with bricks of procrastination … Or is it the opposite? No matter who came first, depression or procrastination. The important point is that both are unwanted guests in your life … and get rid of one, you have gone a long way toward each other giving boot as well.
Plus I have procrastinated, depressed began to feel. Sometimes the depression led to anger … generally sore … and who brought an apology, embarrassment and shame. I felt totally out of control and unable to reel me back in. By the time I managed to get myself back on track, I was so far behind, I felt that there was no way to catch up. So I would get so overwhelmed by the volume of work I had to do, that would collapse under the weight of it all and sometimes the cycle would just start again. There they go … Is a very dark place.
We all succumb to the seductive Wiles of procrastination once in a while, so the key is to have instruments ready to get us back to productivity as quickly as possible.
Actually, I am using one of my favorite tools now! Yes, I have been stuck all morning in the quicksand of “I ‘ mnotinthemooditis”. This is the technical term for a State where just can’t seem to get started, even if you have soooo much to do. It is sometimes known by other names, like “I think it’s time to really clean my sock drawer.” Or maybe for you that is, “maybe if you rearrange the furniture in my Office (for the third time this month), I’ll feel more like work today.” The old standby, “I’ll get to it after making some popcorn, pull out that family size bowl of candy and watch a little Oprah,” has worked for generations.
In any case, whenever your particular strain of this debilitating disease it has in its grip, the most important thing is to just do something. Productive. NOW!!! While that may not be as easy as NIKE makes the sound, is the great advice. Plus you avoid homework, plus you get to road to nowhere … not to be mistaken for the yellow brick road.
The tool I’m using today is this:
Sit with good posture, on a comfortable chair. With your feet on the floor and her hands in her lap, closing your eyes. Let the mind comes at a time when they were functioning on the highest level. Remember how good seemed to be meeting the challenges and the tasks set in front of you? Remember the pride that you felt when finished a really great project and know that you did a great job? Great …
Now, view the bigger task on your list today and pleased with how he feels when it is completed. See yourself fully engaged, enjoying the process, anticipating the smile that fills your heart when you can control this colossus from your list. See the pen by the check mark next to the task.
Sit with this feeling for a moment. Before you open your eyes, allow yourself to really feel the joy and sense of accomplishment that you know you will be accomplishing this task. Forgive yourself for any self inflicted wounds that procrastination has caused. Agree to take the first step, as soon as you open your eyes. Breathe your commitment to loving yourself enough to break through the challenges you face and get ready to play great. Open your eyes to the joy of being the biggest it can possibly be. You yourself making gift to inspire!
As my old friend, Keith Morton used to say, “there’s more than one road leading to the promised land”. This is just one of the tools I use to get me back up and running.